Busy Day and a Picture Worth 1000 Words

What a day! Taylor had an ultrasound, six therapy sessions, her tracheostomy capped, her PICC line removed, and a video call with friends. What a difference a good night of sleep makes.

Capping her tracheostomy means putting a cap on the outside of so no air flows. This causes all the air to be through the mouth and nose like normal. It is a major step to getting the tracheostomy tube removed. As a result of capping she was able to start sounding out words in speech therapy. Her first words (hi,  bye, yes, no, dad, and Clair) are faint but definitely there.

A Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter (PICC) line is a tube inserted into her arm that ends very close to the heart. It allows intravenous medicines to be given easily without damaging sensitive veins. She has had one of these lines in her arm for two weeks.

In the video call with friends she had a lot of fun and brought out her smile:

Later just before she went to bed I told her the story of how her brother Nathan asked his girlfriend to prom. Again she was all smiles.

I can’t describe to you how wonderful it is to see her smile. In the last week she has become completely aware of her predicament and has understandably been down about it, but she is bouncing back and enjoying life, including being her giddy/giggly happy self.

All of your positive thoughts and prayers are working!!!! Keep them coming.

Lazy Sunday and Breeze

By design, Taylor had a lazy Sunday in preparation for the busy week ahead. Her Uncle Hung, Aunt Erika, and their kiddos came in the morning to say, “Hi.” We found a place to visit and talk quietly. Then Taylor napped most of the day. Around 4 o’clock, she went for a ride outside in a wheelchair. At every fork in the road Taylor picked the route. When we got to the garden there was a breeze, and I asked her if she could feel it. Yes, she could. Then I said, rhetorically, “Doesn’t that feel nice?” “Yes,” she said.

Smile

Today Taylor got a shower and afterwards a care giver carefully combed her hair and teased out a tangle. Do you want me to braid your hair? No. Do you want a pony tail? No. So we just left it loose.Taylor was curled on her side and looked more comfortable than she ever had.

Then came time to select the music. Incubus? No. Estella? No. The Lumineers? No. The Romones? Yes! After “Blitzkrieg Bop” started playing Taylor started smiling. Not a big obvious smile. Kind of a sneaky sly smile. Happy that she recognized some of her music. This was the third time she has been spotted smiling.

How Amazing This Recovery Is!

This website is about positive news, and now that Taylor has reached this level of recovery, I can now talk about some of the negative news we initially got.

In the beginning, the senior neurologist gave us the news. It was blunt and simple: ‘Persistent vegetative state for the rest of her life.’ This news really stunk, so we earnestly enrolled Taylor in a research study, really just to get access to another professional to get a second opinion. The neurologist heading up the study talked candidly with us but in the end, said the same thing.

The research neurologist did give us a glimmer of hope by noting that before the cooling protocol, this prognosis was very accurate, but after this protocol, which Taylor received, the prognosis was only 95% accurate. As I said…a tiny glimmer. Exploring and coming up with ways to explain this 5% was the focus of the study.

Then I managed to get a young night shift resident to give it a go. At 3 am he looked at the MRI with me and very carefully took the time to explain exactly why anyone looking at that MRI would say the same thing. Basically, because the brain needs a feedback loop to process time-based information, and the feedback mechanism is heavily damaged, she will never be able to process a sentence or a succession of eye movements or anything at all. He then proceeded to talk about the other damage.

Then a friend of a friend (thanks JB) took a look at it and said it looks “not very optimistic.”

Then I cornered another night shift resident who also gave the same assessment under no uncertain terms. You see, night shift residents are young and haven’t learned the fine art of sugar coating. They tell you the text book case of things and don’t hold back. I explained this idea to a senior neurologist, and he said they do this only because they are so green that they haven’t been totally wrong yet.

The clincher was when Taylor’s eventual lead neurologist first looked at the MRI. At that time, he and I hadn’t met. I was walking in and out of Taylor’s room and when I did, this doctor was glancing over at me from behind a computer screen. It wasn’t a good glance. It was a face of incredible emotion. It creeped me out and after two or three of these looks, I shot him a WTF face. When I did, he realized what he must’ve looked like and immediately changed to a pleasant smile. When he finished with the computer, he asked to speak with me and said he had just reviewed Taylor’s records and wanted to talk about how to proceed. He was a seasoned pro and as such, carefully told me to not expect much and discussed what kind of care we could give her short and long term. He has kids about Taylor’s age and the sorrow in his raw, unfiltered expression still haunts. That look!

The greatest news of all is that we don’t care about any these predictions because Taylor didn’t just beat the original prognosis, she kicked its butt! Apparently, she is in the 5% that defy the pre-cooling methods of prediction. Of course, to anyone who knows Taylor, that’s not a big surprise.

Taylor Code

“Taylor Code” is a way for her to communicate with us using simple gestures. “Yes” is stick out your tongue. “No” is shake head side to side. “I don’t know” is close your eyes.

Her improvement in answering questions using this code is amazing. She is able to explain her comfort (and discomfort) to us using a few questions. Example: Are you comfortable? No. Are your legs bothering you? No. Is your back bothering you? Yes. Do you want to be rolled over? No. Do you want to be pulled up? Yes. Problem solved!

I also asked her if she “wanted to tell or ask me something?” Yes. ‘Now what do I do?’ I thought. Getting to the point of what she wants to is a bit trickier. Here is how the conversation went:

Is it about an object or a person? Oops, that’s not yes or no question. Is it about an object? Yes. Is the object stationary, like a house? No. Is the object movable? Yes. Does the object belong to you? Yes. Is it your old car? No. Is it your… wow there are a lot of possibilities. Out of the blue I say “Is it your computer?” Yes. Eureka! What about your computer? Oops, she can’t answer that. Do you want me to get your computer? Yes. I now have the computer, do you want me to turn it on? No. Huh? Are you sure you don’t want me to turn it on? Yes. After thinking about it for a while… did you just want to know the computer is here and safe? Yes.

At first I thought this was an odd first question to ask, but considering it is probably her most valuable and useful and personal possession, it is not a bad first question. It also made me think…What would be my first question assuming that, like her, you already know that you and everyone in your family is safe?

If anyone has any experience, tips, or ideas on how to carry on conversations this way, please leave a comment.

 

First Day of Rehab

For Taylor’s first day of rehab she was pushed and pulled all over the hospital. First she went for lab tests and an x-ray, then to speech pathology for swallowing training, then to another speech pathologist to attempt use of the speaking trach. She then went to physical therapy where they tricked out her wheelchair. Afterwards she took a small break, then over to occupational therapy, then finally back to her room where they did and EKG. After that it was close to 5pm and she finally got some rest.

At each stop there were many questions asked and Taylor was answering them all like a champ. Between the two of us I was the tired one. Finally she is being put to bed and is resting up for another full day tomorrow.

Save Taylor’s Plant

Some time ago Taylor grew an avocado tree from a seed she got from a grocery store avocado. Apparently a grocery store avocado can sometimes grow into a plant if the seed is split. Taylor heard this and when she found one she grew a healthy little tree which she deposited in my care after going to MIT. Of course I have a black thumb and so now the plant is in bad shape. Just like Taylor it needs some rehab.

My girlfriend Inge, who is a farmer’s daughter and has a green thumb, replanted it with healthy soil but it still looks kind of sickly.

Something is eating this plant. Does anyone have an idea what is eating the leaves and making them look so sickly? Does anyone know how to get rid of it?

Climate wise, the plant is in Los Angeles, Venice Beach to be exact. This is a challenge to all you southern California gardeners out there.

Colorado Bound

Craig Hospital in Denver has been chosen (99% certainty) as Taylor’s rehabilitation facility. It was our number one choice because of the closer proximity to LA, younger age of patients, and overall reputation and quality. Yesterday, we met with Donna, a representative from Craig, who came all the way out to Boston to examine Taylor and her care team to make sure they were a good fit. Today, we learned that Taylor was accepted into the program and that a bed will be available on Monday. Insurance and transportation are the only issues pending, but neither Donna nor the case worker here at MGH anticipate any problems.

Taylor had a very lazy day today. Her heart rate was up slightly more than yesterday, but other than that, she had a storm-free day. She has also turned into a little wiggle worm and can be quite restless in bed. The doctors attribute this restlessness to her becoming more “awake.” This is another good sign that she is ready for a rehabilitation facility.

Eyes Open, Eyes Closed and Out of the ICU

Yesterday morning Taylor was again able to respond to my commands to open and close her eyes. Today she did it as well but not as energetically as she did yesterday. The plan is to work out a slow blink and then use one and two slow blinks to work out a yes and no response. Once we work this out the first question will be “do you want me to change the music I am playing for you?” I’m sure the answer will be “YES!”

In between these two performances Taylor has been doing some more of what is called ‘storming’ also called Paroxysmal Sympathetic Hyperactivity (PSH). This is where Taylor gets nervous and starts breathing quickly with a high heart rate. Typically hospitals handle this by administering sedatives. Instead of this we are trying to calm Taylor with a foot massage or a soothing voice. That didn’t work last night but so far is working out today and Taylor is getting better at handling herself.

Finally we are back on the neurology care floor a room right next to Taylor’s last room. The ICU folks were great but we are glad to be in more calm environs for sure.

New Challenges

Taylor faced a new challenge today as she was severely dehydrated. She had to be sent to the Neurology ICU for what is, hopefully, a short stay before returning to her neurology recovery ward. Taylor has been in the hospital for about a month, and her body has remained quite healthy until now. So far, her dehydration has fully recovered, so hopefully this episode will pass soon.